124 Tripping Over Your Essence — Remembering Your Origin Self

There is something quietly humorous about being human. We can travel the world, read hundreds of books on personal development, search endlessly for happiness, and still manage to overlook the one thing we have carried from the beginning — our essential self.

Many people believe spiritual awakening requires dramatic change, new identities, or complicated practices. In reality, the deepest form of transformation often begins with a simple recognition: your authentic self has never left you. What fades is not the self, but our awareness of it.

Your origin self — sometimes called the essential self or soul self — exists beyond personality roles, career titles, emotional reactions, or life circumstances. It is the dimension of consciousness that remains steady even when the external world feels uncertain. While the personality adapts to changing conditions, the essential self continues to hold your deeper intelligence, intuition, and creative clarity.

The challenge of modern life is not that people lack wisdom. It is that daily demands constantly pull attention outward. The nervous system responds to schedules, responsibilities, financial concerns, relationships, and information overload. Over time, the mind becomes louder than the quiet voice of intuition. When this happens, many people mistakenly believe they have “lost themselves,” when in truth they have only lost conscious connection with their inner awareness.

Spiritual growth is not about forcing enlightenment or rejecting ordinary life. It is about learning to live in both worlds at once — grounded in the practical realities of daily responsibilities while remaining connected to the deeper intelligence of the soul. This balance is the foundation of intuitive development and sustainable personal transformation.

Small daily practices make a profound difference. Moments of reflection, stillness, prayer, creative expression, journaling, or simply stepping away from constant stimulation allow the nervous system to reset and the intuitive mind to re-emerge. These practices do not create your authentic self; they simply clear the dust that temporarily obscures it. Like cleaning a mirror, clarity returns naturally once the surface is tended.

Emotional discomfort is often misunderstood during this process. When people begin reconnecting with their essential self, they may feel uncertainty, vulnerability, or temporary confusion. Rather than being signs of failure, these experiences often indicate growth. Old patterns, beliefs, or expectations begin shifting, and the nervous system adjusts to new levels of awareness. Real transformation rarely feels dramatic at first; it feels honest, subtle, and quietly liberating.

One of the most powerful supports for staying connected to your origin self is gentle discipline. This is not rigid self-control or perfectionism. It is loving devotion to clarity — choosing rest when needed, protecting time for reflection, setting healthy boundaries, and prioritizing nourishment for body, mind, and spirit. These small commitments create stability, allowing intuitive intelligence to guide decisions more consistently.

The journey of self-awareness can be compared to the rhythm of the ocean. Some days feel calm and expansive, while others bring emotional waves that crash unexpectedly. Yet beneath every surface movement, the ocean remains vast and steady. The same is true of human consciousness. Your essential self does not disappear during challenging periods; it simply waits beneath the surface, ready to guide you back into balance when attention returns inward.

As awareness deepens, intuitive intelligence naturally expands. Creativity increases. Decision-making becomes clearer. Compassion grows, both for yourself and others. Rather than losing rational thinking, you gain the ability to hold complexity and nuance without becoming overwhelmed. This integration of intuition and reason is a hallmark of authentic personal development.

Perhaps the most comforting realization is this: you cannot lose your true self. You may become distracted, discouraged, or temporarily disconnected, but the essential self remains present throughout every stage of life. Each moment of awareness, reflection, or honest self-listening brings you back into alignment with the deeper intelligence that has been guiding you from the beginning.

Personal transformation does not require becoming someone new. It invites you to remember who you have always been — steady, aware, intuitive, and capable of living both a fully human and deeply spiritual life at the same time. And if, along the way, you occasionally find yourself “tripping over your essence,” it may simply mean you are finally noticing what has always been there.

With love, 
Laura 🪷